Still around

Hello all. I am still around, just busy helping my friend. She is recovering well, she just can't take care of her mother, who will be 90 in October, so I am doing it for her. I enjoy it a lot, hearing the stories from this wonderful woman, it reminds me of my grandmothers and the stories I used to hear from them. I love both my friend and her mom so much and feel blessed to be able to help them out. I do not know how long I will be helping them, probably for about 4 more weeks I would guess. But until then I will only be online occasionally, and will post when I can.

B.J. had a blast at Church camp this past week. She came home with a 2ND place ribbon for memory verses, and 2ND place for biggest splash for the older girls group. She has been going to camp for about 5 years, and I think this year was her best so far. She actually made some friends from other places and hopes she will get some letters from them as well as pictures. She had forgotten her camera, and they promised her to send some copies. My little girl is growing up, and I am proud of her.

My husband and I are doing good, both busy, him with work, me with helping friends. We do take time to be together even if it is just while we shop for the things every family needs. He goes to work early so that they can get stuff done before it gets so hot outside, he works construction, so when it is hot they all get real hot, and when it is cold, I try to have coffee or something to warm him up when he gets home.

Well, it is about time for bed so I will close for now. May God bless you all,
Judy

It's been a little while

Sorry it has been a while, but I have been a little busy. We are getting B.J. ready for church camp and that takes a lot of time and packing. My parents have gone on a long vacation, and I am driving back and forth to their house and tending to their dog and watering their flowers. And a friend of mine from church had to have a hernia repair, and I am helping to take care of her mother, as well as helping her as much as I can and as much as she will let me. Can you say busy. I love it though. I think very highly of both these ladies, and it is truly an honor to help my sisters in Christ when they need me. So I am not online as much as I usually am, and I am a little more tired than usually as well, so blogging just isn't top of the list right now in importance. I really wouldn't even be awake right now, but my feet are a little swollen and hurting tonight and I am having a little bit of a hard time getting to sleep. I am hoping that they will quit hurting soon, and I will be able to sleep for a while. I will be helping my friends for about 10-14 days, and tending my parents place for another 4 days, so if you don't here from me know I am okay, and that I will get back to blogging when things are a little less busy.

May God bless you all

Live is good.

Things are going well here. Emotions have settled down, now that Becky has moved to her dad's and all. Finances still are tough, but that is every body's life it seems. B.J. has had a friend over since Sunday, so she has not been so "bored", now if her friend would just listen a teeny bit better, we would be great on that front. I sat with the twins today, and had a good time. They are so sweet, one year old now, and crawling all over the place. I took a bunch of pictures of them while I was there, they were so good that all I had to do is crawl after them and snap picture after picture. Of course with toddlers, about the time you snap the picture, they turn and the shot isn't to good, but if you take enough you get some real good shots. I stayed around after their parents and big sister got back long enough for them to download the pictures to their computer before I left. They are such great people, and I love kids, so watching their kids is fun for me every now and then. It is almost like therapy for me to be around the babies, I mean, how can the hardships of life get you down, when you are watching little ones just keep going and learning and developing? We should be like them, just keep going, after we vent, just keep learning. Learning what God wants us to do or be, what is our path in his eyes? You can learn a lot from watching children of almost any age. And I am trying to open my eyes, and heart for these life lessons that I am so blessed to have.
Count your blessings every day, and thank the Good Lord that he gave them to you. I know I am bless and thank God for all he has given me.
God Bless,
Judy

Feeling better today.

Today has been a good day, even though Becky called and said she and her dad and his girlfriend ran out of gas and wanted to know if I would take them some. She doesn't realise that her step dad is the one who was so generous, because I didn't have the money. They gave me some for gas and my trouble but it wasn't enough to mess with, plus that only left enough to barely get them back to the gas station, so my husband filled my car up as well as adding to how much they asked us to get for them. He is such a generous man, and I am bless to have him as my husband. He does all he can to take care of me and our family.

Last night after I posted, I decided that I was going to go to my church's web page and listen to the sermon that I had missed Sunday night because of B.J.'s knee hurting, and man, it was like just what I needed to hear. It was titled "Walking Faithfully with God" and it touched on a lot of the fears I was having about my faith and if it was strong enough. It was almost like God was talking to my heart and put it in my head to listen to that sermon for help. I feel much better about my faith, and dealing with what may come in the future. If you want to hear some real good messages, I would suggest going to the link on this page for Lomax Church of Christ and find the link for audio sermons, they upload our sermons so they can be listened to online, or even downloaded to be listened to whenever. I know that if something comes up to where I can't make it to church, I can go to this site and listen to it a day or so. Such a blessing to have such resources.

Well, I am going to go for now,
May God Bless you all,
Judy

A bout of depression.

Why is it that about the time you think, "Hey, I made it through the rough part, and I am okay", something happens to knock you through a loop and back into the spiral of depression and sadness? It has been a year and almost 2 months since John earned his angel wings and for the most part the last month or so didn't seem so bad, though I miss him every day and think of him almost every minute, my moods were stabilized and I was thinking that, hey, okay, the hard part is over. Then, the one person in my family that can really just drive me nuts, decides to go live with her dad, my ex, and lets me know she blames me for having to move over there because I wouldn't let her move back in here because of the things she chooses to do. That I didn't do enough to help her find a job, or anything else for that matter. She knew what a hit it would be on me, for her to move back over there since he had hit her before, and left her more or less homeless when she turned 18, and made her do things illegal to make ends meet. I am so scared for her, but also I am scared for me. I know she is an adult and has to make her choices, and make her own way through her life, and I can handle that and the knowledge that she may or may not do something that is illegal or immoral. Everyone has to make their life their own way, and I realise that. But what scares me most is the fear of losing her in a more final way, death. I just do not know if I can handle that emotionally or spiritually right now. I am unsure of my strength as a christian to bear another hit like that. I know God has a plan, and can see the "Big Picture", and that everything happens according to that. I know I love Him and I have faith in his works, but I am scared of the strength of my faith not being enough yet since my return to God is in a so called juvenile stage. I just pray that God gives me the strength I need to get through this. The last day or two have been so hard, the tears just pour out at the slightest thing, I am having trouble sleeping again, and I am just so unsure. I hate this feeling, and I am trying to deal with it, but man it has been one of those really rough patches. I have been told that things like this will happen, and I know I will always have some of these feelings. But when does it really get better? When will I feel normal again? When, When, When... the questions just go on. I don't know the answers, and I don't know if the answer will ever come, but I just pray for the strength and comfort I need from God right now. Lord, please help me with dealing with these emotions, I feel like I am drowning in them.
Well, I pray everyone out there in blog land is having a much better day than me, and I pray that my friends fighting FA, or cancer, or any other issues will be guided by God's loving hands.
May God bless you.
Until next time,
Judy

Really missing my boy.

Hello

Hello again. Hope all out in blog land are doing okay. It is almost 12 midnight and I can't sleep. Once again, Becky has gotten under my skin and I am having trouble sleeping and keeping from crying. She has decided that she is going to live with her dad again. And she also made me feel like it is all my fault just because I took a firm hand with her and wouldn't let her move back in because of the choices she made about who she befriended, and what she did. She even said that she didn't have a choice, that she had to go live with him because she didn't have anyplace else to go. I just pray that one day she understands that I am just trying to let her live her life and learn how to take care of herself. I can't let someone who has no regards for rules or laws live with my family. I have a younger daughter that doesn't need that kind of influence named B.J. who is on the right track, with school, with God, and with life so far. Anyway, I know God knows what is going on, and I know that he will take care of us if we have faith, and let him into our lives which I have. I just pray that Becky finds the peace and serenity that God can give that nobody else can, and gives herself back to Him.

If you have the time, watch the slide show, there are a couple new pics of B.J. that I took. I love them. The picture in the header of my blog I took as well. If I had the funds for the equipment and for tuition I would seriously consider going to photography school. Oh well, maybe someday. Until then I will just enjoy taking pictures as a hobby. Well, I will close for now.
God Bless and take care,
Judy

Wow, it has been one long weekend!

Well, it has been a long weekend. B.J. fell on Friday and hurt her knee, and dealing with that and having to wait on her almost hand and foot has made for a very long and tiresome weekend, but we went to the doctors and at least it isn't broken, and doesn't look injured to badly. It does have fluid built up in it and the doctor put her on crutches and antibiotics to make sure the fluid doesn't set up infection, as well as pain relief. If the fluid doesn't go down by Friday of this week, then he will remove it by needle aspiration. The funny part is watching her try to use the crutches, she tends to be a little clumsy on her own two feet, let alone trying to use the crutches. But anyway we are dealing with it and with God's help, it will heal up soon. At least that is my prayer. She has Church camp in a few weeks and needs to be up to par by then.

I want to ask for continued prayer for my friends, the Litchfields. They are struggling with the relapse and all, and are looking at 4 to 6 weeks inpatient, probably soon. They will find out more tomorrow, when they meet with the team again to discuss plans. Just please keep them in your prayers.

I am doing okay, had a few bad days lately with being down some. I think one thing that is flaring up the sadness and worrying is the fact that Becky is still down with her father, and I haven't talked to her in over a week except for one email she sent me last Wednesday. I worry about her, but I know I have to let her live her life her way. I just wish I knew she was okay, really okay. But I just have to trust that God is looking out for her, even if she doesn't like me talking about God and what I believe. She has pushed God away, even before John died, but more since. I just pray she finds her way back to him. Other than that, things are pretty good. I took some pictures of B.J. and one of her friends last Thursday, and will try to post a couple soon. We had fun doing that and then they swam for a little while in the creek.

Well, it is late, and I am going to close for now,
God Bless you all,
Judy