Well, another day of class is nearing its end, and I am so glad. I only have about 4 and 1/2 more weeks, and I will graduate. I need to be working on my cover letter, thank you letter, and thank you card. I also need to be printing examples of my work, but oh well, I can do all that this weekend. I am glad for the weekend to be here, I need a break from this stuff for a day or two. I hope to find a job pretty soon, but I have faith that I will get one when the Good Lord is ready for me to have one.
It is hard for me to believe that it has been 4 1/2 years since John passed away. Sometimes I feel like it just happened. That I just came home without him from Vanderbilt, but it isn't so. My heart still aches for his smile, loving arms, and sense of humor. I know he is in a better place, but that just leaves me here without him.
B.J. and I are at each other's throats at least every 3 days. I will be glad when we get through this difficult time and can be closer again. I miss when she was little. She and I were as close as could be until I had to go to Vanderbilt with John and had to leave her at home so that she could continue her schooling and such. I sometimes wonder that if I had taken her with me how things would be now. I know that we did things the right way, but there is always that doubt in my mind.
Brad will be deployed soon. It seems unreal that he will be so very far away. I feel almost like I am loosing another child. I know he will be okay, if that is God's will, but my fears still get the better of me sometimes. I guess I still need to work on my faith more, huh.
Becky is still doing well. Working hard, that is for sure, I just wish her husband would take a notion to find a job and help pay the bills. I hate to say it, but he is starting to really remind me of my ex-husband, and that is not a good thing. He buys her things to make her feel good, but at the turn of a dime, he will say things to make her doubt herself and feel bad about herself. Just like Charles always did me. I just pray that he will grow up, and treat my daughter the way she deserves to be treated.
Joe and I are doing well, just trying to make ends meet until I can graduate and get a good job. I worry about him, as he doesn't really take good care of himself. He takes care of all of us as best he can, but he doesn't take care of himself. I guess life insurance is the first thing I need to start after getting a job.
Well that about wraps it up here. I need to get ready to go home.
May God bless and keep you safe, happy and loved.
Judy
