life

Well school is going well, I have a 99.5 average for the trimester so far. I have finished accounting I and Microsoft Word 2007, and I have Excel, PowerPoint, and Access left to do. I already have my third trimester books so that if I finish this trimesters books early, I will be able to go ahead and word on the others.

Life outside of school is not as good at this point. Finances are really bad, and I am not sure how I am going to get to school, or how the bills will be paid. I just hope that our income tax return comes in quickly so that we can get our bills caught up.

I am missing John so much these days that I am in a constant state of tears, and really have to focus on something else to keep from letting them flow. If it ever starts I do not know how I am going to stop them. In a couple of months it will have been 4 years since he died. Four years since I have seen his precious face, and heard his loving voice tell me he loves me. They say that it is supposed to get easier, but here lately it seems to be getting harder instead. Nobody really knows how much it is bothering me, I refuse to let anyone in on it. It seems like when I try to talk to my "friends" about it their eyes glaze over and it is like they are tired of hearing my sadness. I don't feel like I can talk to my family about it because I don't want to burden them with it, they have enough on their own plates to deal with. I was able to go to church services on Wednesday, and it seemed like I didn't have much support there either. Or at least not as much as I used to. May be my imagination, may not be, that is just how it felt to me.

I know that God has a plan, and that he will guide me, but I just feel almost like my faith is withering like a flower without water. God help me, touch my heart and heal it to where I can be happy again without feeling guilty about it. I need your comforting arms.

May God bless all of us that have lost someone near and dear to our hearts.
Judy

Back to school

Yeah, school is back in full swing. Already took a test, in accounting chapter 7, and made a 99! Yeah me. And I am half way through chapter 8, and should be ready to test again around Thursday. Then I will have one more chapter and I will have accounting 1 completed. I have about decided that I like the accounting, and I am going for the diploma in accounting, Accounting Assistant, as well as Administrative Assistant. Then if I can't get a job, and can continue to get financial aid, I will try to get the 2 medical diplomas (Medical Administrative Assistant, and Medical Coding/Health Insurance Specialist) Then I will just have to keep looking for a job until I get one. And when God is ready for me to have a job he will help me to find it.

I am glad that I am back at school, I think this Christmas season was the hardest so far since John passed away. I think part of it was because Brad and Tiff moved to Texas because that is where Brad is stationed in the Army. I had a hard time trying to keep from getting so depressed that I didn't want to get up out of bed or do anything. Nobody really knows just how bad a time I had this year. I tried to hide it because I know there are some people who would think, "Okay, it has been three years now, move on already." But if they only knew, but I wouldn't wish the experience on my worst enemy, let alone a friend.

Well, it is getting late, and I need to make sure that B.J. gets up for school tomorrow.
Til next time, God Bless you all,
Judy

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to all! Just a quick post to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year. Brad and Tiff are in Texas now, and he is being processed in. They are in an apartment, and waiting for the army to get Brad processed and then they can find out if the army will come and get their furniture so they can officially be moved in. I miss knowing they are a phone call away, if I should need them to come over. Becky is doing well, working and enjoying married life. She and Sage are in their own place now, and though money is tight they are doing okay. B.J. is half way through her Junior year, and has made an A on her dual-enrollment college course. I have finished my first trimester of Tech school with a 94 average. I received an acedemic award as well as my General Office Assistant Certificate. The only bad thing is that my hubby's work is down to nothing. We can't even pay all our bills on time, let alone buy gifts for anyone. But I know God will provide what we need, so I will just have to trust him and his judgements. Well, that about does it for now, hope you all have a great Christmas, and remember the reason for the season, Jesus Christ's birth. Our Savior and hope for a life in heaven.
God Bless you all,
Judy

Long time no blog.

Yes it has been a long time since I last blogged, but hey, nobody is perfect. I have been going to tech school, and I am enjoying it a lot. We have 3 more nights, then Awards day Thursday and we are done with this trimester. Next trimester starts on January 3rd, and I am looking forward to another trimester of cramming knowledge in my head. I have an average of 94 or so overall, and I will be starting on Word, Excel, Access, and PowerPoint next trimester. These are the ones that I have been looking forward to. I love working with a computer.

My son, Brad, graduated from Bootcamp and is now a United States Army Soldier. He is a Tanker, which means he will either be driving a tank or working as loader, which means loading the ammo. The only thing is, he will be stationed in Fort Bliss, TX. That is quite a ways away, but with the Internet, we will keep in touch, as much as possible anyway.

We are getting the first snow of this winter season. It has been a very long time since we had snow before Christmas. Schools are closed tomorrow, at least the public ones are. Don't know about tech school yet. Of course there are a lot of happy youngsters out there for sure. I wish I could take some pictures and post them, but I am already fighting off the funk, so I am not going outside to take them. I love taking nature pictures, but don't want to end up sicker than I already am. Maybe next time, but anyway, it is time for me to end this post.

May God Bless you all!

Judy