A sad time.

Hello, it is a sad time in the FAmily. Another young child is fighting a battle for her life. Her site is http://diannasjourney.blogspot.com/ , in case you want to go and let her family know you are praying for her. She had her BMT, and is now having a lot of trouble. The doctors are saying there is not much more they can do for her, that her lungs are failing (she is on a respirator), her kidneys are failing, and now her heart and liver are showing signs of failing. Please pray for her, as well as her family. I have been in their shoes, and it is not a good place to be. IT SUCKS! It seems to be going exactly like John's did. The lungs, then kidneys, and the heart and liver were failing when we stopped life support. It is breaking my heart that another family is going through things a lot like what I went through. Please Lord, heal this child!
Praying

Wow, it has been a while!

Sorry it has been so long since I posted. I have been helping a friend by sitting with her mom for the last week and a half, plus watching a 4 year old 4 to 5 days a week. It has been pretty busy, and I haven't been online much. This past weekend I went to Chattanooga, TN with my sister. She and my brother funded the trip, We left home early Saturday morning, visited the Tennessee Aquarium in Chattanooga, and we stayed at the Chattanooga Choo-Choo hotel that night. Then Sunday morning we got up and drove down to Alabama to see my Aunt, and Cousins and their children. I remember those days of having a bunch of kids all under the age of 11. We rolled into town around 9pm that night. Yesterday I felt like I needed a vacation from my vacation! HA! It was so much fun. I took about 192 pictures while there, a lot of the animals and fish, but also a couple of family. The only thing that would have made it better was if B.J. would have agreed to have the group picture taken so that all 4 of us could be in a picture together, but she is at the stage that she just doesn't like her picture being taken much at all, and I do good to get a shot of her here and there. We ate at Cracker Barrel for Breakfast Saturday, then we had snacks for lunch, then we ate at Olive Garden for supper, and man, I do believe that it was some of the best Italian cuisine that I have ever had. I was so full, that I couldn't eat it all. Then we had Waffle house for breakfast Sunday, and then we ate lunch at my aunt's house. Then my wonderful husband, who stayed home and worked, had soup ready when I got home. It is a weekend that I will remember and cherish for a very long time. I have such great siblings, who don't have any children, and wanted to give me and my girls a good weekend away! I am so blessed!
I pray you all are blessed as well as I fell.
With love,
Judy

Hello

Well, hello again. It has been a little while but there really hasn't been to much to post. The only happenings besides regular daily things is my birthday which was on the 7Th. I turned 45 years old, and my loving husband gave me the best card with a note inside it plus a great present. It was a Polaroid digital picture frame. I have been uploading some pictures on it and it has made me a little melancholy, with all the pictures of John before and during his treatment as well as my other children. Pictures of my oldest son during his wedding, which are hard to look at because he is in the middle of a divorce. Pictures of my girls growing into such wonderful young ladies, at least they are wonderful most of the time. Of course they are still young enough to give me grief sometimes, but they are such treasures. But the hardest part is the memories of John during treatment. I still miss him SO much, and I wish I could have more pictures. It just saddens me sometimes to think as I continue to collect my pictures of family and friends I won't have new ones of John. That really hurts, the thought of more and more pictures of the rest of us, but only having the ones I have right now of John. I know, I am babbling, but I just can't put into words exactly how it feels. Proud for the rest of my family, but sadness about John. It just drives me a little batty sometimes. Tomorrow is mothers day, and though I will see my other 3 children during the day tomorrow, John will just be in my heart and memories. I long to see him as a 13 year old young man, becoming a teen, starting to like the girls and all that, but I will never get to see him in those stages. I sometimes find myself thinking what if. What if I had made different decisions with his medical care, what if I had not decided to turn off life support when I did, and all kinds of other what ifs. I know in my heart that I made the choices I had to, but sometimes my head just wonders if the outcome would have been different if I had made different decisions. I know that all this is normal, the feelings I am feeling are "a part of the grieving" but sometimes it is just so hard. I look forward to going to school in September not only because it is something that I want to do, but because then I won't have as much time to think about the what ifs. Oh well, now you all know that I am not in as much control of the emotions as it seems in person.

The rest of my birthday was great, the Russian class that I have been going to at the church sang "Happy Birthday" to me in Russian, which was so great. And so many friends and family sent cards, or posts on my facebook page. I am so blessed to have such great friends, family and brothers and sisters in Christ. God has blessed me in so many ways. My husband, my children, my family, and my friends. What else does one really need anyway? God will provide what we need, the extras are just more blessings and are great, but I have come to realize that the best blessings are our God, our Family and our Friends. As long as we have God, the rest will be taken care of.

Thankful for Gods blessings,
Judy

Just a little rambling!

I got so tickled at B.J. the last couple days. She hates to be bragged on, and said that if bragging was a sport, I would be ready for the Olympics. HA HA! Too funny! If I start to tell someone I haven't talked to lately, she goes starts in with, "Oh great, here we go again." She is so modest sometimes. Gotta love her.

My son will be moving in soon, until he can find a place of his own. Him and his wife are splitting up, and getting a divorce. I hate that he has to go through something like this, but I knew in my heart that this would happen when they got married. I knew they were rushing it, were too young, and not ready yet, but they were "adults" at least in the age, but not maturity, and wouldn't listen to the advice that almost everybody was trying to give them. I just pray I can help him find his way back to God, and get him to go to church and put God first.

Other than that, things are the same here. I will be going to school in September from the looks of things. There is a long list of people waiting for a spot in the day class for the class that I am taking, so there would have to be a lot of people dropping the class for me to go any sooner than that. But that is okay, I can wait until then. I am looking forward to it though, and I am anxious to get started so that I can get look forward to graduating and getting a good job and such.

Russian class was so much fun last night. It always is! We are still going 2 nights a week, and the couple that is teaching us will be in until the 11Th or so of this month, so we will get a couple more classes in before they leave for Russia to get back to their mission work. I will miss it while they are gone, but I have to try to keep studying so when they get back we can pick up where we stop, and not have to review to much.

Well that about does it for now, I will post again some other time.
Until then, God Bless,
Judy